An ode to love

7:32 PM Moi Sanom 3 Comments

I have always been a skeptic and a romantic at the same time. I believe in true love, but always doubted it could ever happen in real life.
This mind set makes this little story I am about to tell you even stranger to me, then I might like to admit.

Never did I believe ( but fantasized of course) that I would ever be entangled in a love story that could rival Wesleys and Buttercups, even though I confess Johnny is sometimes a little bit more like Jareth the Goblin king then Wesley, not that I mind.

 My first crush
For years I was imagining this perfect being, a mixture of Edward Scissorhands and the Pie maker. Writing secret love letters to him and imagining a million different scenarios on how I could meet this person in real life. 

(Edward + Piemaker = Purrfection)

Well little did I know that my little love adventure would involve the internet, Arizona and a wonderful place called Hitrecord.
A few years ago I was searching for excuses to travel to the US for a little holiday when Hitrecord announced the Fall Formal in LA in 2011. At that time Johnny Clyde and I had been talking about running off to the circus and how to name our pet monkey for a few months already. And since he made me believe that he lived close to LA, a mere 6 hour drive, we decided to attend the show together. As circus buddies of course.

Fall Formal

Obviously I didn't predict that the first second I saw his awkward frame in the airport I would utterly and completely fall in love with him.
We spend 2 wonderful weeks together and enjoyed ourselves driving from Arizona to California and back, going beyond hope and everything.

You are now beyond hope

The first month back home was absolute torture for both Johnny and I. I have never been that miserable in my life and didn't know one could feel that broken inside. The next few months were filled with doubt and confusion, since Johnny is not a very communicative fella and we honestly had no idea what we were doing.
After four months of this ordeal I went back to the US, and 2 months later we got married.
Some people might not even find this as outrageous as I do. But come on I never really wanted to marry, specially not someone I just met!


Since that 28th of march 2012 we have moved a gazillion times, been homeless together, moved continents, got our first place, had only 2 bucks to our name, had a little more than 2 bucks to our name and went through quite a bit of personal and creative developments.
But never have I been happier in my life!
I never thought I would meet a person that completes me as much as he does.
I am quite a strange person, so it takes a strange person to fit into the weirdly shaped puzzle piece that is me.
Johnnys profile pic from 2010 sums it up perfectly!

And Johnny is that and so much more!
We are more than soul mates, I truly believe we were made for each other!
The past 3 gifts we have given each other always had the same theme even though we kept it completely secret.
He took me to the planetarium on our first anniversary and I gave him a handmade personalized watch with the universe in it.
I just couldn't make that kind of stuff up even if I wanted!

And now THIS, its the most beautiful, thought out, romantic, and loving gift there is!
I have no idea how he can ever top this one. (oh Johnny you got yourself into a gift giving pickle)
He spent the last month making a secret album.
13 songs, for me, about me, inspired by me!
When he played me that first song I burst out in tears, the voices in the Intro might sound absurd to most but it holds special meaning to us.

2 weeks ago he asked me for a whole list of samples I would like him to turn into songs, and I cluelessly gave him a whole page of songs, naively thinking he needed some inspiration.
Never would I have thought he would use those to incorporate into the album.
(For those of you who don't know me, I am obsessed with samples, a sample hunter you could say.)

And when he asked me yesterday to take photos of him while recording, this thought crossed my mind: How cool would it be if Johnny was actually recording right now and would incorporate the camera clicks into the song.
Guys I dare you listen to track number 13!

Oh and if you haven't noticed the Names of the tracks are a poem to me. Because making the album alone wasn't romantic enough :)

And to quote a conversation Johnny and I had on the 26.10.2011

Moi Sanom: “ My body misses yours, my hand misses your hair and my soul misses yours as does my mind. My heart feels like a piece was taken out, with a tiny void left in the middle trying to fill itself with anything it can find, but unfortunately nothing can fill it. But talking to you gives it hope that some when it will feel whole again."

Johnny Clyde: “Aw wow that makes me really sad :( We will be back again!"

Moi Sanom: “But it’s not as sad since we are going to see each other again! It’s a good sad,the kind of sad that makes u feel alive again. The kind of sad that gives you super powers to do anything we want!

Johnny Clyde: “Yes that's right! But if you'd hold my hand and we'd look to the sky I think that there's a chance that We could once again feel alive! “

Johnny Clyde we will never be broken again, but whole forever. Because dead or living wherever you are, there am I!

To my Prince Charming
photo by Vicente Arenas